Pearly

I cannot believe I have let myself dye my hair red and get a nose ring. The fact that it is PERMANENT aswell is awful. I spent the whole day today trying to get my nose ring out and in the end had to break it apart with pliers, and I've put in the old stud so I don't look so bloody rough. I'm so upset about my hair. It's not that I don't think it looks nice, it's the fact that I miss my original colour hair that nobody else had that was natural, my whole image was natural and that was the only thing I liked about myself. I didn't have piercings, no fake hair, no tattoos, now I've gone and ruined myself. I have to now wait months for it to begin to fade and grow out, and when it's begun to fade a bit I'm dying it back to my natural colour, then that's it, NO MORE HAIR DYE EVER. I can't believe I've even let myself do it, argh. Every time I look in the mirror I just feel depressed. I miss this first photo of myself, so much...